Hourglass of Words

I have to write quick. I forget fast and learn even faster. I think my goal is to try to understand everything, to be everyone, to stand in everyone's shoes, to compassionate with them, to sympathize, to empathize, to finalize, and categorize, to privatize, and to clear the skies. I can't belong to a group, it's too limiting. I can't be labeled or judged, its my biggest fear. I can't be me, I have to be the universe. Yeah, I guess you could say I am jealous of God or whatever cosmic force(s) sit in their ornately decorated throne. But because I want to belong and understand everything, I consequently belong nowhere. And in the back of my mind I feel like my aspiration, this universal wisdom, is itself labeled something. Do I care what its called? No, and I hope it has no name. But it can still exist. But does something exist if it has no name? If it is not recognized? if it is not important? I suppose. Who ever said too much knowledge was dangerous? Well they were right. Its human nature, universal nature, to group things. Its called perception, and we can't avoid it. Everything is labeled, if its not it can't exist. Maybe I can't exist the way I want to be. I don't want to be stuck with a group, with limits and fears and expectations. But I don't want to be an independent or whatever. I don't even want t be me, and I don't even know who me is. I'd be a good actor. I am a good actor, but I want to get out of character, I need to. But alas, Will said it best.
"All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players"
Did he imply that we are not true individuals? I'd like to think so.
Forget this velveteen shadow of a convoluted mind, I am alone, I'd like to think so until someone comes along. I want to blame others, but its mostly my fault for expecting so much, for misestimating society's capabilities, my society. Can blame heal? If genuine, perhaps, but blame breeds guilt, and guilt breeds blame. And I am pure-bred.